this is not a show

late night snakes and jam noisenoisenoise radiator annoying overlay accent dirty fingernails incestuous friend massage creepy voyeur this is not a show

late night early morning quiet and smoke roll your own fallen guitar cluckcluckcluck annoying overlay accent cold hands exes and excess questions creepy interrogator this is not a show

blanketed not eye trapped radiator conversational fucking hathathat excuses for the sun faithful at Gethsemene annoying disciple sleep this is not show

rooted?

collabo with emily c-d

my mother

delicately handling
the fancy fabric on the bolt,
my mother imagines her creation.
years of underpaid menial manual labor
have literally broken her back
and rendered her hands
barely useful,
so the elaborate dress
she has in mind for her granddaughter
becomes a simple sundress,
something she can whip up,
ignoring hand spasms.

her whole life she has spent
waiting for the luxury
of personal discovery,
and I fear she will never
achieve her heart's desires.
her resources -- financial, physical,
emotional, et. al. --
diminishing.

I believe the American dream
is a joke,
but she can't see the humour.

verses

life has been many words for me
inundated with language
sometimes I seek the gold of silence
but don't know how to spend it

easy coercion

so few of us leave ourselves open
to the possibility of the divine
we curse the innovation of creation
conjuring demons from the darkness
cast from the shadows of our own light
I worship the devil sometimes
because God is a fuck
I didn't enjoy

faking it
I spread my legs to disconnect
I close myself off to intimacy

hungry

the world's in your belly, honey
feed it, feed it
the world's in your belly, honey
watch it grow

your eyes are bigger'n your belly, honey
you think you need it, need it
your eyes are bigger'n your belly, honey
don't let it show

reach

this is the precursor to the line drawings I've been doing recently, featuring another motif in my current artwork: trees that double as people or body parts.

if we set up a screen printing room as has been discussed, I would like to screen this and my other line drawings. I think they'd make good fabric.

I completed a new one, but I can't seem to rotate the image, and I can't find photoshop on this computer. I almost uploaded it anyway, but I think it would bother me too much. it's a collaboration with emily c-d, she embedded a characteristic drawing of hers and I really like how it turned out. my next piece is going to be an experiment with watercolor pencils, and if it turns out, I'll be donating it to Clean Water Fund to be auctioned off on ebay to fund shore cleanups and such.

distraction series (I'm a novice)

these are my first scanned images. I've never used a scanner before, because I've never really considered anything worth scanning... but I've been drawing a lot lately, and am becoming comfortable with a couple techniques that I will be honing.



there are recurring motifs in my work, and I accept that now. the quality of the scans are not so good, but I'll get better. I kinda just fooled around impatiently, and once there are people home to show me what to do, I'll have better images.

these are a series of line drawings that I've been doodling the past couple of days. I like the asthetic. I'm gonna start doing water colors for these, but I can't use them in my notebook. I've been experimenting with different mediums lately, and I'm excited to see what I produce.