hawai'i rebound

no dreams to remember
but there is a rooster
I hear him and think
this is not real

but casually
there's an honesty
the hope in our reverie
is not to feel

late at night
I understand my mother
sometimes it's hard to wrap
your arms around alone

biologically
there's a tendency
to fill the vacancy
under the pretense
of just getting some

held hands
hold answers
and the answer this time
is no

there's an urgency
the conversation's deep
but our talk is cheap
when words are all we know

didn't want to wake up alone
so we shared some pain
in each other's arms
it's nice to pretend

that the ease with which
we leave each other
will ease the pain
of leaving them

you might comfort me
temporarily
but in the end
I'm left with me

and I might help you
some kind of peace might get through
but in the end
you're left with only you

it's hard to say
but as I walk away
I know we'll both be okay
when all is said and done

this is not vulnerability
it's solidarity
distraction can be the key
to moving on